Wednesday, 10 September 2014

Wednesday thoughts from my heart . . .

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"Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies."
 ~Proverbs 31:10 

What a wonderful broadcast was presented to us at the chapel last night.  I love that, as women, we are so very treasured by the leadership of our church that they single us out and speak to  "just us" the way they do, several times a year.   The women in our church have always been cherished as the jewels that we are  . . .  the rubies . . .

As members of one of the largest and longest running women's organizations in the world we have a declaration which begins as follows:

"We are beloved spirit daughters of God, and our lives have meaning, purpose, and direction."

I think that is a wonderful thing in today's crazy world to be cherished as the beautiful creations which we are, and to know and embrace our value as such.   So many women in the world do not really know who they are and what their value is.  What a difference it would make if they only knew and felt this basic truth.

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I did not realize my own value when I was a young woman.  Because of this I made very poor choices and unwise decisions.   If I had only known then what I know now, my life could have been very different, but hindsight is always twenty twenty is it not?  I know now and that's what counts.

I love these special meetings and the things that I learn about myself when I attend them and listen to the talks which are presented.   I always take notes as I am listening and mark down special impressions which I get.  Sometimes I don't think as women we realize just how very important we are or how very much of an impact we have and can have on the people around us.  Any consistency in our lives can have and has a profound affect on those around us, and most especially those dear spirits given unto us for our care . . .  our children.






















As I was sitting there last night, listening to the talks, pondering the words in my heart, surrounded by like-minded women,  I thought about some of the women that I have known in the church, who . . .  like myself were Baptised on their own without their husbands being Baptised, much like I was.   And then I thought about the differences.   All of the women I know who did this, without exception, had the support of their husbands, and whilst the husbands themselves did not care to be Baptised or embrace the church . . . .  they did not prevent their wives from doing so, or even prevent their children from attending church.  It was simply not a choice that they wanted to make for themselves for whatever reasons.  It occured to me that they quite obviously had a great faith in and love for their wives and respect for their choices . . .  which is a great thing and I wonder do these women realize how very blessed they are . . .

After thinking that I was crying . . . because I realized that  . . .

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Although he had given his permission for me to be Baptised (husbands must give permission if they are not being Baptised themselves) my ex husband did not love me enough or have enough faith in me to know that I would never do anything at all to harm my children or to lead them astray . . .  these wonderful spirits which I had given birth to and nurtured and loved for their whole lives with all of my being.  In fact . . . he did the exact opposite and implanted in them the feeling that their mother was a nut who joined a cult and was not intelligent enough or discerning enough to know the difference between what was right and what was wrong . . .  or what was false and what was true.  He told me I could go to hell if I wanted to . . .  but I was not taking HIS children with me.

And I don't know why some fifteen years later . . .  my heart still breaks at the thought and why it still has the power to make me weep and mourn . . . it should not, but it does.

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I love my babies.   I love them with all of my heart.   And no matter how old they get or how many children they have of their own, they will always be my babies.   And I wish that I had had a better opinion of myself at the time because had I so done . . .  I would never have let them believe that of me, and now it is too late . . .


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But I do want them to know that from that day up to this day, and forever more  . . .  I have not and will not doubt what I know to be truth.  My heart does not waver.  The entrance to holiness comes with a courageous heart.   And just as it tells me in my patriarchal blessing I am and will be as a light on a hill.  When I am long gone from this earth I hope that they will say this of me . . .

"She walked not in the borrowed light of others."

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Have a wonderful Wednesday.  May you be blessed as you bless the lives of those around you.


 

11 comments:

Sybil said...

I think it is so very sad when religion seperates a family Marie. note I say religion...not Christianity...there is a vast differenc ein those two words I think. So much cruelty and bad ness has been done in teh name of religion...but certainly not by any true Christian who know that above all our Lord loves us died for us and his command to us to love one another as he does us..to me that command is above all others if we would only do that one thing love one another....no damage could be done..Thankfully it is never to late....The sun has just come out now after a very very thick misty start to the day...Looking forward to sitting out enjoying the warmth once again..Also have a church leadership meeting this afternoon...as our minster is still not able to come back to work we will have another misnter chair the meeting, he is not nearly as good as Rachel is at keeping us in order LOL...so meeting might go on a bit longer than usual...
Hope you have time to catch some of the sunshine. How wis your arm ? hope it is better xxx

Suze said...

Hugs Marie. I am hugely busy tonight and hope to come back later.

Marie Rayner said...

Yes, I would have to agree Sybil. There are many routes back to our Heavenly Father, it's a shame that it is so divisive. I always thought family love was unbreakable, but I guess the scriptures to day that in the latter days family will turn against each other. Religion and politics eh? Hope you have a great day. It's gorgeous here. My arm is the same. No better, no worse. xxoo

Take some time for yourself Suzan! xxoo

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

It would be nice if we knew then what we know now. Age does seem to bring wisdom. The past cannot be changed but we all have today to make the most of. Hope you have a wonderful Wednesday!

Marie Rayner said...

You are right Pam, we cannot change the past. We can only learn from it and move forward, and make the most of what we've been given! xxoo

La Table De Nana said...

Sad he did that Marie..
as for religion..and politics..
All so personal..
We are all so different where beliefs and opinions are concerned.
Upbringing,where one lives..peers..so many factors ..
I do believe in your case it is never too late..and I always hope one day things with your children will be so peaceful for you.

Marie Rayner said...

I have tried hard to forgive him Monique, and I think I have made great inroads towards that. Talking about it helps and like you I hope one day that all will be well. I believe that it will. An Apostle of the Lord told me so . . . he said that Heavenly Father was mindful of the desires of my heart and I believe that to be so. All will be well. All will be well. The sun is shining gorgeously here today! Hope it is where you are as well! xxoo

La Table De Nana said...

All will be well..I am sure you have read that on the small everyday ME calendars.I love that page.
4 of my fave words.
All Will Be Well.
Gorgeous here too:)

Marie Rayner said...

Monique, our two hearts they beat the same rhythm! xxoo

LeAnn said...

Marie, this was a poignant post. I do love the wonderful positive messages for woman that we get in our church.
I loved all of your lovely pictures of your family. I am sad that your ex husband acted the way he did. Like I said before i really think deep down inside the hearts of your children that they know the love you have for them and that they love you deeply too. I can't imagine that they don't see and feel the light when you are near or communicate with them.
Blessings, love and hugs for you dear friend.

Marie Rayner said...

LeAnn, thanks so much for your love and hugs. I have three that are okay with me. One who is fairly accepting of my choices and the other two think I am destined to go to hell, but at least accept me. Then I have two that really could care less. I keep plugging away though because that's what a mom does, right? Love you too! xxoo