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I seem to find myself causing a lot of confusion for myself and others lately. I do apologize for all of the  kerfunkle of going private here on the blog. It seemed like a good idea at the time. I was well intended. I had not thought that there were so many of you that would want to continue reading and so, when I went to do it, Blogger simply would not accept the numbers. It meant that I wouldn't be able to allow everyone who had requested an invite to join and how could I pick and choose. I just couldn't.

So I made the only choice I could and that was to leave it open.  But then that caused another problem.  I did a blog post addressing everything, but for some reason only half of the post published.  By the time I realized that, it was too late to change it as I was going out with Dad and Cindy, and so I decided to email everyone, but again another problem surfaced . . . 

Apparently in emailing everyone in a group email, it inadvertently meant that anyone responding responded to everyone in the group, much to the annoyance of some.  I deeply apologize for that inconvenience. There were simply too many people to email each one individually. I did the best that I could.

Anyways, I ended up annoying a lot of people and here I am today trying to scrabble the pieces back together. I cannot blame any of you for wanting to ditch me now, lol  That darned Murphy's law. It will get you every time.

What can I say. I am 70 years old, facing a huge challenge and I am not the sharpest tack in the box at the best of times.

So, thank you for your patience,  let us try again. 

 

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As you all know my daughter experienced quite a serious hemorrhage in April. It was horrendous but we dealt with it.  She had a CT scan on Monday last and a Doctors appointment to follow up on Wednesday. The news was not good.

She has endometrial cancer, or cancer of the uterus. They did say it could be pre-cancer, but they have also been telling her she is pre-diabetic for the last five or so years as well, yet she is still on diabetic meds.  I think, because of her developmental disability they tell her what they think she can cope with intellectually, and it is much easier for her to think she is "pre" something than it is for her to think she actually "has" something.

In any case, the Doctor has fast-tracked her to the specialist in Kentville hospital and things will go from there.  He also told her if she hadn't heard anything from them within two weeks to get in touch. Yes, that is how quickly things move around here when it comes to medical anything. A snails pace. We are just lucky to have family Doctors at this point. She will need a hysterectomy  at the very least. 

We are trying to be optimistic and hopeful that it has not spread anywhere else. She is still bleeding, although I am not sure how much. Its a delicate issue to confront and discuss and she tends to tell you what she thinks you want to hear and what she wants to believe.

 

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Needless to say this is not anything that anyone wants to hear or to experience, but it is what it is. We are grateful to have already experienced tender mercies of the Lord. She attends a Bible study on Friday mornings and when she went to do her work for it on Thursday, this scripture was the first one that popped up.

"This makes you very happy, even though now for a short time different kinds of troubles may make you sad. These troubles come to prove that your faith is pure. This purity of faith is worth more than gold, which can be proved to be pure by fire but will ruin. It is your faith that will bring you praise and glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed." 1 Peter 1:6-9

She was greatly encouraged by reading that.  She said to me that she felt like God was speaking to her and telling her that this is just a test and that everything will work out.

She has certainly been going through the fire, first with her marriage and now this. She told me, "Mom, I am not afraid to die because I know where I am going. I am a little bit nervous, yes, but not afraid."

Why do our brains automatically go to the worst case scenario. I wish that they did not. I was quick to encourage her that "that" was not going to happen and that we were going to be doing our utmost to fight this latest battle, no matter what. That we will be "LIVING" every day that we are given to the fullest.

I did end up having to have my ex here the other day. 😖 Something I had never thought would happen. He had wanted to meet her at Tim Hortons to talk, but I said that what needed to be discussed was not a Tim Hortons kind of conversation, but was best dealt with in person. So he came over and she was able to tell him what was going on. I have always wanted us to communicate better with him when it comes to anything pertaining to the kids, after all WE are their parents, divorced or not. I am hoping we can work together on this. Our daughter deserves nothing less from each of us. We can and will get through this!

We would be most grateful for your prayers, happy thoughts and your support through this latest challenge. If you are a temple goer, then please, can you put her name on your temple prayer roll. If you would like to send her a note or a card of encouragement that would be wonderful and very welcome. I will drop the mailing address in the comments section below.

I have always called her the encourager. I was just telling her last month that this was one of her gifts.  She is an encourager and an encouragement to many. To know her is to love her.  Every time we run into someone who knows her they always say to me what a sweetheart she is and how she is always smiling and so positive.  This is true. Even in the worst of circumstances. 

I love my daughter so very much. As parents, none of us want our babies to suffer in any way. If I could take it all away, or take it upon myself, I would in a heartbeat. Life is just so hard sometimes.

If you have made it this far, thank you so much for reading. Thank you for caring.

I hope you have a beautiful weekend.  That whatever you get up to, it brings you joy. We are cooking a few meals this morning to take to my friend Jackie. She has just gotten home from hospital with a fractured back from a fall and we are going to visit her and bring her something tasty to eat so she doesn't have to cook for herself. Serving others is a great way to keep our minds occupied.  

Don't forget!

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