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Well, it is pretty much going to be a locked down Christmas again this year. My son definitely is not coming over and they have shut church down for at least the next three weeks. My daughter Eileen is very upset with me because I said we may have to cancel our get together for Boxing Day and postpone it for a later date.  I was not saying we wouldn't do it, but just that it might be prudent not to do it now.

Our numbers here in Nova Scotia are higher than they were way back when the Virus was first making its rounds. I just want us all to be safe.  I can understand her being disappointed. I am disappointed too.  But the fact of the matter is this.  The other night her husband was out with his friends and yesterday he was again out with another group of people.  No masks or social distancing. It is not that I don't want to see my daughter, but that I am not willing to put myself, or my sister, Dan and my father at risk, especially now with this new variant that is making the rounds.

She said well we can't do it the next week because on my Birthday I am going to Bible Study and then we are at our friends in Halifax for such and such a three day period.  She was quite cross with me I'm afraid.

I know she is developmentally challenged. I make allowances for that.  But I find it distressing that she can't understand that it is not that I don't want to see her, but only that I want us all to be safe.  

 

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She reiterates that I just need to have faith, that God will keep us safe.  I say bad things happen to good people all the time. I am not going to jump in front of a bus, thinking that I am immune to all the bad that is out there and that God will keep me safe. God also helps those who help themselves and we are meant to take precautions to help keep ourselves and our loved ones safe, even if that means we have to make temporary sacrifices.

Yes, I do believe in modern day miracles and have been the recipient of some of them, but that doesn't mean I can be fool-hardy.

I suppose I am extra sensitive . I don't like disappointing my children.  Especially where I already have two that have cut me out of their lives. There is always that fear with me that the others will as well, however irrational that might seem to some people.  I always thought blood was thicker than water as well.  Apparently it is not, and you can be replaced.

So I am really hoping and praying that she will be able to understand, that in the long run it is for all of our good. 

She said to me, but you and Aunt Cindy go to the grocery store.   . . . 

I said, yes we do, but we are in and we are out. We don't sit down, take off our masks, socialize and share a meal with people in the grocery store, breathe in their air, etc.  We get what we need. We sanitize our carts. We wear masks. We sanitize after we leave, etc.

 

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Tim will have a temper tantrum when he finds out, she said.  I said, I don't bow to temper tantrums and Tim is why I have made this decision. He is the one who goes out and about socializing with others willy nilly. I just can't and won't take the risk.

I really hate this virus and I hate what it is doing, the social implications of what it is doing, the families it is tearing apart, the holidays it is ruining.

But . . .  we have to do what we have to do. In the end it will be worth it.  Hope springs eternal.

They are going to his parents on Christmas Day. At least that is their plan. Her father is not having them over. He told her maybe in the New Year.  She is okay with that.

Why am I the only who who disappoints, or who can do wrong???  Its the same old story. This too shall pass.

Sorry I am feeling a bit low this morning.  Tomorrow is a new day.  In the meantime I do know that God loves and cares for us. I really do. This is just a temporary blip. We must do what we have to do and do it for the greater good. To do anything else is just wrong, no matter how it makes us feel or how it disappoints.

In the meantime  . . . know that 

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