I am very late getting started this morning. I was exhausted when I fell into bed last night. I fell asleep quickly, but . . . and this seems to be happening more frequently lately . . . within the first 15 minutes of falling asleep I am having a bad dream which manifests itself with flailing about and trying to holler in my sleep. They always involve a man of some sort. Last night it was a man in the kitchen. I had gone downstairs for some reason and as I reached the kitchen door I could see that there was a man in the kitchen and he came for me. I can never see his face, but I always know he is there to hurt me. I turned and started back up the stairs and I was repeating over and over again "Man in the Kitchen! Man in the Kitchen!" and I was absolutely terrified.
I wake myself up, but then I have a difficult time going back to sleep. No surprise there. I am afraid to go back to sleep because I am afraid that the dream will just repeat itself. There is always a man in these dreams and he is always trying to get to me. There is also always a doorway of some sort. Once I was in the bathroom, and when I tried to open the door, he was trying to get to me in there and I was trying to shut the door. Another time it was our front door . . . . last night the kitchen door.
These dreams are so vivid and realistic. I can't tell you who the man is. I can never see his face. Last night it was after midnight before I finally fell asleep for good. I looked up Night Terrors in Adults this morning and came across the article highlighted above. Perhaps I need to go see my GP. Perhaps I am suffering from PSTD? I don't know. I hate to think I am mentally ill!
This is the third morning in a row I am waking up to torrential rain. It is falling off the main shed roof in sheets . . . Mitzie didn't get any of her walks yesterday and she probably won't get them today. There is actually a yellow weather warning in place again today. Its also been really cold. We put the heat on a few times yesterday. Todd minds the cold a lot more than I do. I can usually just put a lap blanket over my legs and I will be okay. Hopefully all of this rain doesn't ruin our strawberry crop. There has been flooding in many areas.
That reminds me of the first year I was living here in the UK. 2000-2001. It rained literally every single day. That was the year I realised that people don't melt in the rain. Back home if it was raining we didn't go out unless we absolutely had to. If you did that here, you might never get out at times, for days and days and days . . . That year there was widespread flooding across the SouthWest. It was horrendous, and quite sad . . .
And I have three of them! Lucky me!
I got to facetime with our Doug yesterday. He seems to be doing well. He had been to his Doctor in the morning. He is still very tired, naturally. He's been through a lot. He still hasn't gone up the stairs where they live. He's been sleeping on the sofa. I hope he will be okay. There is bound to be a bit of anxiety and depression after what he has been through. Its only natural. Thanks so much for your prayers. He reminded me yesterday that Martin Sheen (the actor) had had a heart attack when he was 36 and working on that film Apocalypse Now. Martin Sheen is a very active 78 year old now. That is encouraging to me and hopefully to Doug! It must be because he mentioned it to me.
My windowsil geraniums are thriving thus far. They have really "fleshed" out and I can see a few flower buds on them. I am still wondering what colour they will be.
I was inspired by this photograph a number of months back. An easy dream that I sought to come true and it is on it's way. Not quite identical . . . but close enough! I am thinking I should make some lacy curtains for that dining room window, but then . . . I wouldn't be able to see my little glass birds . . .
They bring me so much joy. Even in the rain.
I am saving up to get a clear stained glass star now, so that I can hang it in the window to remind me of my mum. I want to get two actually because I want one for my sister. I don't know how much they will cost but I am on the look out.
Oh dear the clock has just rung 8 a.m. I am really behind so I must leave you with a thought for the day now!
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*For pride is spiritual cancer:
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In The English Kitchen today . . . Croque Madame Pizzas. Yummy! Quick and easy also!
Have a wonderful Wednesday, rain or shine!!! Don't forget!
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