Wednesday this and that . . .

The day before yesterday I tried to do some painting, but had to give up in frustration.  I said to Todd, my eyes feel really blurry and I can't quite seem to focus on the page  . . .  thought my eyes were just tired, but then yesterday morning when I got up and was coming down the stairs, I thought I saw something flicker in my right eye, and then by mid-morning, I knew I had suffered another Posterior Vitreous Detatchment, in my right eye this time because I had the flickering and a floater the size of the planet earth which had me ducking and diving because I kept thinking something was flying at me.  They said this would probably happen when I had the first one. Not happy about it, but its supposed to be quite common in near sighted people over the age of 50. I just have to keep an eye on it (no pun intended) and make sure my retina doesn't detach.

What is is that Rosanna, Rosanna Danna used to say???

It's always something

...  

 

I used to love Gilda Radner.  She was just the best.  Her characters were always so endearing. What a comic genius she was.

  

It left me feeling a bit blue however  . . . a bit boo hoo, woe is me and so I decided to lose myself in work and I went to town on our kitchen cabinets. That is the best time for me to tackle big jobs like that, because I am totally ruthless. Everything goes that isn't nailed down and I have no qualms about getting rid of stuff we have not used and are not using.  I emptied them all  washed them inside and out, and filled two garbage bags with stuff that was either out of date, or that I had been sent, andI just hadn't been able to use, or that I knew I was never going to use.  I had containers filled with stuff I had brought back from Canada last time and hadn't used because I was hoarding it and now it was unusable actually . . .  like St. Hubert sauce mixes. Why do I do that?  Buy stuff and then let it sit there until its unusable.  I don't want to use it because I don't know when I will ever be able to get some again, and then   . . .  I can't use it because it is out of date or rancid.  What a dummy I am sometimes.  Anyways, we have nice clean cupboards now. 

I need to have one of those moods and get all medieval on

my craft room one of these days.

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I got the most beautiful card from my Sister for my birthday yesterday.  It just brought tears to my eyes.  We may not always see eye to eye on some things, but we have always had each others backs.

 

This is us in about 1961.  She would be three and I six. We were very close growing up.  We hit a few bumps in our teenage years (who doesn't!) but she has always been my best friend and will always be my best friend.  We don't agree politically or religiously-speaking, but I love the bones off her and she me.  I think she is amazing, and so smart.  I hate that she struggles from time to time with stuff, and I wish that I could magic wand her struggles away. She means everything to me and I hope that she knows that.  We don't talk nearly often enough these days.  There was a time when we used to talk for a couple of hours every morning.  Before we both had to go out to work and life changed drastically  . . .  I miss those talks.   

  

She has always been my voice of reason in a world 

where people just tell you what they think 

you want to hear

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Yesterday was Granny Square Day 2017 and I shared one of the granny squares I have been making for my lap blanket.  I have 22 squares done for it now. They are each about 6 inches square.  I think I need about 36 squares.  It's 100% wool and I love the colours.  It should keep my lap nice and warm come the Winter months.  I need to be careful not to shrink it.   I have a habit of doing that with stuff that is wool . . . I did it to a couple of Todd's sweaters.  Bad me . . .  

 

There was a point yesterday, when that black thing was flying in front of my eye, and I was scrubbing my cupboards . . . where I seriously considered stopping everything.  I was just feeling really down in the dumps . . .  what with not hearing from my kids on my Birthday and then my mom forgetting it was my Birthday. I knew it wasn't her fault, her memory is so poor these days . . . but it just made me really, really sad . . . I am so afraid she is going to forget who I am. And my son in law had messaged me, and eventually my oldest son did the day after, and then last night when I was sleeping our Eileen did. (she must have figured out the wifi password at her other grandmothers).  I was really feeling woe is me though.   I had a bazillion birthday wishes on FB and here, and they were fabulously wonderful  . . .  but I would have given them all up to just have my kids remember me, and when they didn't . . . I had some very feeling sorry for myself moments.  Then when my eye blew yesterday I really felt sorry for myself and thought . . .  I need to take a break from all of this.  I need to go away for a while and just lick my wounds . . .  

But then, I thought about how wonderful you all are, always.  How supportive and how caring, and I thought I cannot give this up.  Not ever.  These people, YOU . . .  mean too much to me and you are always there for me, always.   And so I kicked my sorry arse (Todd says that is a swear word, but I promise it isn't.) and I got back on the horse, and left my pity party behind.  I have ever so much to be grateful for.   

I am loved by so very many special people.

I need to remember that and

to heck with the

rest

... 

I need to remember that

it could always, always

always be

worse

...

And count my blessings of which YOU are one.

Pity party over

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A thought to carry with you  . . . 

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 *.˛.° ˛°To say I am made in the image of God

is to say Love is the reason for my existance,

for God is love.

Love is my true identy . . . 

Love is my true character.

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In The English Kitchen today  . . .  the ultimate in Comfort Food . . .  Cheese on Toast.

Have a wonderful Wednesday.  (How did it get to be Wednesday already???)  Don't forget!

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And I do too!