Small and Wonderful Things . . .

 

"The world is fairly studded and strewn with pennies cast broadside from a generous hand. But who gets excited by a mere penny? It is dire poverty indeed when a man is so malnourished and fatigued that he won't stoop to pick up a penny. But if you cultivate a healthy poverty and simplicity, so that finding a penny will literally make your day, then, since the world is in fact planted with pennies, you have with your poverty bought a lifetime of days. It is that simple. What you see is what you get." ~Anne Dillard 

 A few of the small and wonderful things which bring untold joy into my life. It's the small things in life which truly mean the most. Simple abundance . . . it's the best. 

 

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We got a lot of snow at the weekend.  It has snowed practically the whole weekend.  It seems I have gotten my wish for a White Christmas. So beautiful. Pristine. Soft.  Very pretty. Very  cold. Unless something drastic happens, it is here to stay. We are supposed to get more tomorrow as well on Christmas Eve. In fact, there is a weather advisory in place for Christmas Eve. Not so good for those who are traveling. Those who are traveling might want to put off their travel plans until Christmas day. I am very grateful that I do not have very far to go.

Despite the snow at the weekend Glenna and I were able to get to church.  It was the Christmas program. Many did not get there and watched it online.  It was good for me to be able to partake of the sacrament and be where I needed to be on Sunday morning, to refill my spiritual battery.

I have been very sad and have been having a difficult time shaking the sadness this time around. I have been praying and praying for God to take it away. It will take time. I do not want to feel this way for the rest of my life.  Before I got that email the other day, I always had some hope at least that someday a miracle would occur.  Now I have lost that hope.

Somehow, some way I am going to have to find the strength to reconcile myself to the fact that this is just the way it is. Outwardly that is easy, but my soul is struggling. My heart is sore.  In fact, I would say it is broken in a way it has never been. Time heals all wounds, and I am praying in time, this will not feel as bad as it does now.

I am sorry that I have not responded to any of your comments yet.  I have read them all and I do appreciate each one of them, and your support very much.  It's just hard.

 

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Now the Winter Solstice has come and gone, we can look forward to the days getting a bit longer again.  It may not be noticeable at first.  But the shortest day is gone now and little by little the light will return to our days

In the meantime, I am enjoying hunkering down in candlelight, warm lap blankets, candles and music, good books, hot cocoa . . . 

Cats on my lap.

 

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This . . .  just this.  I do not want any more drama in my life. I have had enough of it.  I just want Peace . . . I hand things over to God, but then I grab them back. I need to be able to just let it all go.  It's so hard to do. The discord comes in waves. Gently lapping at the shores of my heart . . . with the occasional Tsunami of grief.  I know it will not always feel this way and I pray for it to end.

The biggest solution is distraction.  So, I stay busy, or at least I try to stay busy. I try to take myself to a place where my thoughts cannot grasp and take hold. To not live in my head.  The hardest time is at end of day when I get into bed and after I have said my prayers, even during my prayers . . . then I cannot stop the tears from flowing.  I try to remember that tears are the balm for the soul. 

 

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I love this room. It looks so serene.  In harmony.  I love the peace that white brings. If I was a much younger woman, I would work on that.  But I am old now and I no longer have the heart and soul of a decorator.  Funny that, when I was young, I had no money to decorate as I would have liked to do. I collected Country Living magazines, and I dreamt about someday. Now I am old, I have some money, and not a lot to spend it on, but I lack the energy and the will to decorate in the way that my someday dreamt of. 

I have little spurts of energy, but mostly I just feel tired and lazy, lol.

 

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Don't you just love it.  I do.  Small and wonderful things  . . .  delightful.

 

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I love the idea of being able to hold all these stars in a jar  . . . 

 

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Safe driving in a marshmallow world.  Glenna did well.  

 

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Simplicity. We tend to overcomplicate things . . .

My goal for 2025 . . .  simplicity. I can do it.

And with that I will leave you with a thought for today . . . 

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between you and the creator.

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 I finished decorating my Christmas Cake at the weekend. I was really pleased with the way it came out. 

This was exactly how I had envisioned it.  It made me happy.  Small and wonderful . . . 

I hope that you have a beautiful day. May your week be filled with joy and peace and more love than your cup can hold.  Be blessed. Don't forget!

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And I do too!