Noah is around the same age as Liam, but not as privileged. He doesn't get to join hockey and soccer, etc. His mom and gran work very hard to just give him what he needs. He is very beloved, however and it shows. I think perhaps I will get a gift for Noah every year that I can. Being able to give to someone who will appreciate it will help to soften the blow of my loss. It's a win/win.
I hope that doesn't sound selfish of me.
As I write this snow is falling. We have had several inches overnight and more is expected to fall as the day progresses. There is a Winter Storm Warning in effect. But I am here in my cozy little house, with my heat pump warming the house, and my wooly robe keeping me warm. I have the fireplace on the television playing piano Christmas carols. My candles are lit. The kit kats are snoozing at my feet.
I was awake extra early this morning. I was awake about 4:45. I didn't get out of bed until 5, however. I just couldn't sleep any longer. My brain was working and so I thought I might as well be up and about the things I want to do today.
I will decorate my Christmas Cake today, I hope, or at least get the Marzipan on. You usually need to let that sit for a day or so before you do anything else.
I had some really cute plans for it to do on a video, but I just can't face doing it on video now. I will decorate it however and do a short video to share it.
I will probably take a nap this afternoon or at least lay back in the easy chair and relax for a bit with perhaps a good Christmas film on the telly. The cats usually come to join me on my lap when I lay back in my chair. I always make sure I have a blanket on my lap for them to lay on.
I had a nice call with my friend Jacquie last evening. For some reason my phone will never connect with hers when I call her, so I have to wait for her to call me. It was not a long call though as I was just about to get into the shower. We have made plans to talk to each other at some point today in any case, and we will have a longer chat then. Nobody will be going anywhere due to the snow, etc.
Jacquie and I have been friends for about 26 years now. She and her husband Tom were a great support to me after my second marriage broke up. That first Christmas on my own they had me over to theirs and fed me Christmas Dinner. I was renting a bedroom in someone's house at that point and had no kitchen privileges. Well, I did, but the girl made such a fuss every time I did cook anything that I didn't cook. I had a microwave in my room and would use that. I think I lived off of 6-inch turkey subs from Subway for the most part.
Anyways, she and Tom were very good to me. Tom has been gone about 5 years or so now and I know Jacquie gets very lonely. I would go and see her more often. I should go and see her more often. My son lives on the street right behind where she lives. I don't know if that is why I tend to not go or not. It could be a subconscious thing. You never know.
Anyways, we will have a good gab today while we watch the snow fall.
I usually buy all of my wet cat food, dishwasher tabs, etc. via Amazon. I have them on repeat delivery and that has never failed me. I know that every two weeks the cat food will arrive and that once a month the other stuff will come. Yesterday my package of the essentials was delivered to my door but there was also another smaller package. Upon close inspection I noted that it was not my package but was addressed to someone one street over. I was just getting on my phone to message someone to let them know when I saw the delivery van return and the guy got out. I met him in the drive with the correct package and he had one for me as well. (I had ordered new slippers as mine were worn out.)
I was most appreciative of his diligence in making sure that the right packages got to the right people. This group I belong to on Facebook is full of people complaining about their package delivery service. That has not really been my experience. Sure a few things have gotten lost and not arrived, but I have always been refunded, and the fact that this guy, on what must have been a super busy day, retraced his steps to make a wrong right was notable.
Most people who do deliveries for Amazon are not making a lot of money for what they do, and they work really hard. They are doing a job that most people don't want to do and probably for a very basic minimum wage.
Kudos to this guy for going above and beyond.
Life is sometimes very hard. I do not think I am alone in experiencing the hard times. I think that rain falls on everyone's shoulders. Nobody is immune to pain and loss and hardship. Life is also very beautiful despite the hardships. We just need to train ourselves to dwell on the good instead of on the bad . . . on our many blessings. I do have many, many blessings in my life. I live in a safe country. I have pretty good health, aside from the aches and pains of arthritis, but as we get older most of us experience that in one way or another. I have a comfortable roof over my head that keeps me warm and sheltered and dry. An oasis in the wilderness. My home, to me, is holy ground.
I have all that I need and then some. Enough to share with those who are not as fortunate as myself. If you have enough and then some to share, then you are very blessed indeed.
I am so grateful for the love of family and friends. For a sister who is always there for me and on whom I know I can depend on in all the seasons of life. I hope she feels the same about me as I do about her.
I have my faith which supports and uplifts me. I would not, could not, be without it. It has gotten me through many a hard or sorrowful time and brought an abundance of joy into each of my days.
I have never known the pangs of true want or need. I have never had to listen to the sound of falling bombs.
I have been hurt just enough in life to enable me to have true compassion and love for others.
Life is good. I will always carry an element of sadness in my soul, but most people do. I can live with it, even when all hope seems lost. I can dwell on the good rather than the negative, and that will . . . does . . . make all the difference in the world.
I hope you have a beautiful Saturday.
A thought to carry with you . . .
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bring with you some virtue
of which I have need.
More patience to bear,
and more kindness to share,
And love that is true love indeed.
In The English Kitchen today . . . Andes Mint Cookies. A small batch. I just had to try them. They are delicious!
I hope that you have a lovely weekend. May you be richly blessed with all you are in need of. Whatever you get up to, don't forget!
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And I do too!
What a beautiful, heartwarming article. Thank you for that!
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I wish you and your family a Merry Christmas!
Best wishes from Germany, Sibylle
PERFECT for Noah! Good on you.. I will be delivering a goodie box later today..my sweet friend and her mom got covid now her dad.Drop and run at the door..Must be beautiful there,,we have cover but no depth..of snow..So the dad is from the UK thinking of adding your French gingerbread cake..looks like it can hold a sign..my small snowflake cake:)Fingers crossed..I am happy your life softened into a comfy cloud..no life is perfect I guess..but you did a full turnaround.have fun in the kitchen.I was at a store this week and a woman just kept harping about the service the idiot staff..I was just about to say something when I was called to the cash..anyway she had lost a set of ears and stopped..I told the young cashier I sympathized with her..The holidays and ..grumps come out..her stupid chair was $70.00 less in a larger town same store..OMgee the horror..they adjust the price ..what a witch Hazel;)
ReplyDeleteSo lovely that you made Noah a happy little boy. His mom and gran will always remember your kindness. I love that poem by Edna Jacques so much so that I included a copy of it with my Christmas cards (still haven’t mailed them yet, but I will). Hope the storm isn’t too bad. We have snow here and it has turned very cold. We’re staying in and decorating the tree today. Love and hugs, Elaine.
ReplyDeleteSelfish of you? Not at all Marie. You simply took lemons and made the sweetest of lemonades! 🥰
ReplyDeleteMarie, I don't think what you did was selfish at all! It is much more satisfying to give gifts where they are appreciated. As for not going to your friend's house because she lives near your son, I would go all the more. Someday, he will regret treating you that way. I'm busy doing my baking and making treats today. Already have my Rum cakes cooling and my pimento cheese is in the fridge. Next up is pumpkin bread and Ranch oyster crackers. Much love - Raquel XO
ReplyDeleteIt hurt my heart to read about the email from your son…I don’t know you ‘in person’ but I’m a mother and I understand your hurt and sorrow. I’m so happy you’ve chosen to love and to try move on from this hurt …how lovely to pass on your Christmas spirit and make an extra special blessing and surprise for another family.
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a beautiful Saturday too! xo, Virginia
How lovely to think of a little boy that would love and appreciate your gift. We did not head to the stores yesterday, figured it would be just as you said. Praise goes to the retail people that have to work these days. So glad the delivery driver got it sorted out. I belong to a group where they complain all the time, of course there are other nice things on the group too. But it does get on my nerves at time. They usually start out with 'hope the person that got my package is happy with my parcel or food delivery.' It is not as if that person wanted the delivery in the first place. And Facebook cannot solve the problems. I will miss your video on decorating your fruit cake but look forward to the next one you do. Hope the storm isn't that bad. It is sunny but really cold here, and getting colder overnight and into tomorrow. Not sure that we will get snow for Christmas. Have a lovely weekend in your cozy home.
ReplyDeleteWhat a perfect solution to the gift issue!!! Thinking of the joy of that little family should warm your heart a long time!! As to your dear friend...maybe if she can go someplace, you could simply drop by and pick her up...and spend time together in a cafe or some sort. If not, I hope you figure out another workable solution. I do understand how you feel...indeed we do...both Hubby and me.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Elizabeth xoxo