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A silver thimble full of tiny holes
A Chinese coin . . . a little rusty key,
Part of a buckle - dad's old signet ring
A tarnished cross from someone's rosary.
Old fashioned buttons on a piece of string
My brother had them on a velvet coat,
A pen nib bright as gold, a bit of lace
A fish hook and a little scarlet float.
A piece of beeswax filled with criss-cross lines
She used to grease the thread to make it strong,
For sewing buttons on - a crochet hook,
A little clapper from a dinner gong.
Worthless . . . I know, yet here I see her best
Rocking and sewing, singing to herself,
Her clean print apron gaudy as a flag
Her crinkled Irish eyes as blue as delph,
God gave us mothers with old fashioned rules
And scented baskets made to hold their tools.
Edna Jacques, Mother's Work Basket
I used to love going through my mother's sewing box. It was like a little Aladdin's cave of treasures. She had round tarnished tins filled with buttons and bobs. Pins, threads, needles. A darning egg. My grandmother's old darning needle. To a budding needle worker it was a little treasure trove of delights.
My father made us knitting spools from empty wooden spools of thread. He hammered nails into the tops of them and got them started for us and then we would use a large safety pin to work out way around the tops, looping bits of yarn that my mother had left over from making mittens and such. We would create long ropes of yarn. It kept us busy for hours and hours. It was called corking. You can buy fancy spools these days for children to do the same thing. It is very rare that you find a wooden thread spoon.
The nights are really drawing in now. It is getting dark earlier and earlier. I am having to put the lights on in here in the evenings and I saw at the grocery store the other day that they are selling Halloween boxes of goodies, chips and things. Small packages to hand out on the night. I will have to ask the neighbors how many children they get in here so that I am prepared. Or maybe with Covid children are not trick or treating? I don't know.
It has been a very long time since I have experienced a real Halloween.
The shops are filled with back to school things and yesterday my sister and I drove past a derelict apple tree by the side of the road, all of its apples falling to the ground to rot. I think I will make some apple butter this year. I like apple butter.
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Signs of the changing seasons are showing up all over the place. Not just fallen apples. Leaves are beginning to turn color, wild flowers going to seed, gardens looking tired . . . it seemingly happens overnight, even though we know it really doesn't. These little changes creep up on us by stealth, little by little until we can't ignore them any longer and they slap us in the face.
The summer is a waning . . .
Nutmeg and Cinnamon
These two continue to delight me. Nutmeg on the left, Cinnamon on the right. At the moment they are sleeping by my feet in a rare moment of quiet. My legs are all scratched up. I knew that would happen, but it does hurt. I'm not going to lie. Its quite normal. I have a little spray bottle and as soon as they try, I squirt them and say no, really loud. They especially like to try when I am sitting at the computer and I can't have that. I will not get any work done otherwise.
But they are some cute. I think they are going to be beautiful cats and such good company for me.
Nutmeg is very cuddly and quite affectionate. He seems to want to be with me more than the other. He likes to get up near my face when I am watching tv and stretch out. His little purring machine driving in overtime. He stretches out and nuzzles me, giving me kisses.
My sister says that Cinnamon is a Marmalade cat and Nutmeg is a true Ginger. I am not sure what the difference is between the two, it is in the colors and markings I believe.
They are both beautiful to me. Cinnamon's eyes are changing now from blue to gold I think. Nutmeg's are not quite changing yet.
My sister gifted them with a fishing pole toy yesterday. It is a toy her cats have loved. It is a pole that has some feathers attached to the end and you can swirl them temptingly in front of the cats. It also has a little fish option you can fill with catnip if you want. I haven't gotten any catnip yet. They are wild enough as they are!
My sister and I met my father for breakfast early yesterday morning before we went to Walmart. Cindy and I each had pancakes and my dad had his bacon and eggs with toast. Cindy and I also had bacon with our pancakes. Why not? It was a real treat! Best part of it was being there together. I am not sure how much longer we will have our father around to enjoy like this, but I hope it is a good while longer.
He says he is getting tired of having fish and chips on Wednesday nights when he meets his lady friends. I told him he should shake it up a bit and have something else next time. Maybe a Hamburger Steak dinner or something like that. But he will probably just have the fish and chips. Its in our DNA. Must have fish and chips when we eat out!
I watched the second episode of Time with Sean Bean and Stephen Graham last night. It is an excellent series. But very eye opening as well. I am not sure what I thought prison was like. I think I saw it as being more open and with plenty of outdoors time, etc. kind of like a hotel that you are not allowed to leave. Not as fancy as a hotel, but quite tolerable. I must be pretty naïve. Its not a nice place at all. I hope I never have to be in one. No wonder criminals come out of there as better criminals. Nasty places.
I admit it distresses me a bit to think of my husband being in such a place. I know what he did was horrible and he is horrible for doing it. Its a really difficult place to be, where I am mentally. To be able to separate the who I thought he was from the who he really was. I am not sure I can explain it adequately. I am still grieving I think. Perhaps I always will. It will take a long time to properly get over it, if ever. In all truth, it would have been better easier if he had died.
There. I said it. Ignorance is bliss.
I will leave you now with a thought for today . . .
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Time solves most things.
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I have been slow at responding to comments this week. I hope to get them all sorted today and to do some blog reading as well!
Have a great Saturday whatever you get up to! Don't forget!
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And I do too!
Love seeing the kitty photos and hearing of their antics. Stores here full of Halloween too, no kiddies where we live to come door knocking. Happy weekend.
ReplyDeleteI don't imagine we get many children here at the edge of town. But you never know. I will have to ask my friend Glenna. She will probably give me a more accurate description as she is a bit younger than everyone else on the street. Bonne Weekend! xoxo
DeleteHave to watch part 2 .I’ve watched a lot of prison shows it’s all bleak.You reminded me of your association with being in prison.I had not thought of it.I can’t imagine.
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Its pretty bleak for sure. But I had not really watched any prison shows except for Orange is the New Black, which is probably not a very realistic representation. I feel bad now for saying it would have been easier if he had died. Very selfish of me. But that's the way I sometimes feel. Easier for him. Easier for me. But at least this way the Victim(s) are getting justice, which is the truly important thing. It is hard for me to think about any way I look at it! xoxo
DeleteYou are making some new and wonderful memories now and a good life for yourself. It's best to forget and forgive the past in order to move forward.
ReplyDeleteI love love that poem by Edna, so sweet. And your kittens are very sweet also. Some memories are too difficult to dwell on, it’s hard to forget nor should we. Making your new happy memories and moving past the difficult ones are your goals for now. You are strong and full of life and love. Enjoy. V
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ReplyDeleteThe poem is so perfect to describe all of those little boxes and tins that our mothers and grandmothers held so dear.
Your kittens are growing! They are just adorable, and I'm sure they keep you hopping! It's been fun seeing photos of them.
I love that you get to spend so much time with your dad, what a tender mercy for you and Cindy. And what a treasure to have the little knitting spool that your dad made, what a treasure!
nothing better than apple butter! I'm hoping to put up some apple sauce and maybe some apple butter, we shall see.
Halloween is such a fun time of year, although we never get children at the door. I try treat my grandchildren with a little treat of some kind, bu.t with Covid, I'm not sure there will be many, Trick-or-Treaters this year.
Don't feel bad about the way you feel, Marie. I think it's just part of the healing process to feel that way. As time goes on, your heart will mend...hugs to you.
The cookies look delicious, and with so few ingredients they look easy to put together. I may have to try making them today, yum!
Have a good Saturday, Marie, snuggle with those cute babies and give them a little snuggle for me ;0) XOXO
Hugs and Love,
Barb
I really think these people who do such awful things to children have no soul (maybe they did but some things I doubt even GOD would forgive). The pedo my daughter was married to, had told her that he felt empty inside, without feelings. He did have anger, for sure that...but I guess all the rest was just acting (in public) as he had observed others doing. I have a lot of questions myself on such things. As well as having grown up nearly beaten senseless...those types must be empty inside too. How awful. Even though I hate being a victim, still, I far prefer that to being ONE OF THEM!! I hope as time goes along and your family loves you so, it will help you to heal...
ReplyDeleteHugs, Elizabeth xoxo
Oh, Marie. Don't ever feel guilty for your feelings. You're trying to make sense of something that makes no sense at all. You must feel very conflicted. Focus on your new found happiness here in Canada with the people who love you and who you love. Love and hugs, Elaine
ReplyDeleteSending you another virtual hug ...You are doing great...proud of you ! :) x
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