All things nice . . .

  

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Let us be thankful, Lord, for little things -

The song of birds, the rapture of the rose;

Cloud-dappled skies, the laugh of limpid springs,

Drowned sunbeams and the perfume April blows;

Bronze wheat a-shimmer, purple shade of trees -

Let us be thankful, Lord of Life, for these!

Let us be praiseful, Sire, for simple sights; -

The blue smoke curling from a fire of peat;

Keen stars a-frolicking on frosty nights,

Prismatic pigeons strutting in a street;

Daisies dew-diamonded in smiling sward -

For simple sights let us be praiseful, Lord!

Let us be grateful, God, for health serene,

The hope to do a kindly deed each day;

The faith of fellowship, a conscience clean,

The will to worship and the gift to pray;

For all of worth in us, of You a part,

Let us be grateful, God, with humble heart.

~Robert William Service

 

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Apparently there is a snow warning in effect for Monday.  That is this time of year.  The transition from Winter to Spring. Anything can happen. 14 above one day, 14 below the next.  Well, not quite that drastic, but you get the picture! Over all March was really nothing to complain about. If I recall, it came in like a lamb and it went out in pretty much the same way! 

Now we have April showers to look forward to.  And then the flowers that they bring us in May.

Its raining this morning and about 4 degrees above zero.  

 

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 Yesterday Dan purged my garage of 40 kilos (88.149 lb.) of cardboard. That's how much the weight scale at the garbage sight said it weighed.  Unbelievable eh!  My garage was stuffed with it.  Its a wonder my car fit into it! It had been weighing me down for a while now. I would try to cut the boxes down and flatten them and bundle them to put them out every two weeks for garbage day, but it was very overwhelming.  I could only get so much out every two weeks when the garbage truck comes around. It would all be flattened and bundled and you were allow to put out two bundles of a certain thickness. So overwhelming to me.  I am so very appreciative of Dan's efforts yesterday.  Now I can keep up with the amount of cardboard that comes in much easier.

Everything today comes in a box. A box that needs to be disposed of. When you are starting from zero, those boxes add up!

Thank YOU Dan!! You rock!! 

 

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There is no sweets in my cupboard either now.  Yesterday Cindy came over and helped me to go through everything.  We had a big bag to take to the green bin and then a big box for me to take over to Eileen and Tim's for them to  have for Tim's lunches etc.  What a huge help that was to me. I had been saving the out of date stuff to throw out to the birds, which is not a great idea I guess.  When you are one all on your lonesome it is difficult to get small packages of anything.  So you might be craving a certain kind of cookie or whatever, but you have to buy a whole box to get one.  The rest might sit there. I guess the solution to that is to bake only very small batches and not buy cookies at all. I was so appreciative of my sister's help. We sat down after and talked about nutrition and I made lists of what might make good breakfasts, etc. I know I should know all this stuff, and I do, but sometimes it just helps to put things down on paper.

With two bad blood results and another test looming it is time to get a handle on this. I am so grateful to Cindy for helping me with this.

 

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I was sitting here last night thinking  . . .  I had been watching This is Us. That show always makes me cry. I thought to myself . . . I deserved better.  Three husbands and all of them duds. 

The first one who wanted all the perks of marriage, but none of the responsibilities, especially when a child came into the picture, leaving me on my own to raise our son.  I deserved better.

The second, who I loved the bones off of, he was my one true love. He left me on my own for the most part of our 22 years together to raise four additional children and play second fiddle to his career, while he went off here and he went off there, leaving me often without a car and to do things all on my own.  Verbally, emotionally and mentally abusive, a bully really.  When that ended I was broken to the core. I deserved better.

The third, well . . . you know all about him.  I deserved better.

I deserve to be cherished and valued in the same manner that I cherish and I value. I will never again settle for less than what I deserve. If that means I spend the rest of my life alone, well . . . that's okay! Its just a pity that it took me 66 years to realize this fact!

 

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I am so looking forward to our General Conference this weekend, beginning today.  I so love listening to what our church leaders have to say to us.  I have been listening to a different talk each day in preparation for this weekend.  It is surprising how much more I have gotten out of the talks than I did the first time I listened to and studied them.  That is the power of the word  . . .  to be able to meet you where you are and with whatever you need to hear/read. 

Anyways, I have been arming myself with a few things/questions I am looking for answers to. I just know I will get what I need to hear. I always do. Its like magic.

Of course in light of all that is going on in the world at the moment, I am even more eager to hear what inspiration my church leaders have to share with us. Come listen to a prophet speak.  If you want to you can easily access all of the talks and music here.  They start at 10:00 am MST.

She looks pretty innocent eh?  All sleeping and stretched out. She is a little monkey. My sister and I were in the kitchen with Nutmeg and we heard a loud noise and ran out to the living room to notice that she had jumped up to catch one of my glass birds.  Broke the tail off and sent it flying across the room. Little rascal.  I knew it was only a matter of time before she did that.  She had been eyeing them up for a while. I had discouraged her more than a few times.

She is the hunter of the two. Very quick as well.  If one of them gets out the door, it will be her.  

This one is more of a bumbler.  He is quite affable and less serious minded. Eager to please. Not so independent. The prey would hear him approaching and easily get away.

Oh how I love them both.

 

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As you all know I am estranged from two of my children. My youngest son and daughter. As a result I am also estranged from three of my 8 grandchildren. It is something which I have just had to learn to accept, as difficult and as heartbreaking as it may be.  I ordered a new book yesterday called Done with the Crying, Help and Healing for Mothers of Estranged Adult Children.  Every little helps.  I think I am doing okay with it all, but then something will trigger the bad feelings all over again. I thought this book might be helpful. It has almost 2000 good reviews.  What is sad is that that many adults have felt prompted to buy this book, and I know that there are many, many more people than this that deal with the issue.

I had a bad dream about it just before I woke up this morning. In my dream I was at church or a church thing of some sort and I looked over and there was my youngest daughter holding my youngest son's son.  The grandson who just turned two the other day.  I don't really know what he looks like really, but in my dream I knew it was him. I went over to her and I said to her, can I hold him.  And the look on her face was enough to wake me up. Total rejection and revulsion. It was not nice.

I know dreams are not real.  But sometimes they can feel real. Probably it was buying the book that triggered the dream. Rejection of any kind is difficult to deal with, but rejection from the ones you love and who are supposed to love you back is really difficult to deal with.  

 

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I am going grocery shopping with my sister this morning so must be off and about.  I am looking forward to spending the time together and then seeing my father afterwards. It will be nice!  Oh and on the positive front, I got paid for my book.  Whew!  Not the social media payment, I doubt I will ever get that now, but at least I got the payment for the book!

I will leave you with a  thought for the day!

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*Life always offers 

you a second chance.

Its called tomorrow.•。★★ 。* 。 

In The English Kitchen today  . . .  I am sharing my top ten favorite cake recipes.  There is not a dud in the bunch. It was actually really difficult to pick just ten!

I hope you have a wonderful day!  Be happy, be blessed, be inspired, be safe, and don't forget! 

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